The Trap
Sandra Peterson Ramirez
Posted on April 22nd, 2013
“A trap is only a trap if you don’t know about it. If you know about it, it’s a challenge.”
~China Miéville, King Rat
“A trap is only a trap if you don’t know about it. If you know about it, it’s a challenge.”
~China Miéville, King Rat
“It’s not going to last,” she said, carefully squeezing the lime into her drink and giving it a thorough stir.
“You sound very sure.” He tried to keep the hope out of his voice. They’d done this dance before. Many times.
“She doesn’t like to travel.” She dipped one finger in the drink, ran it along the rim and then licked the salt, tasting it.
“But you just went to Vegas?” He hated the question in his voice. Hated the tingle of excitement elicited by watching her lick her fingers. Hated that he wanted details to think about later.
She shot him a look of disgusted amusement. “Vegas isn’t traveling. It’s…” She searched for a word.
He waited, knowing better than to help. When she wanted help, she’d say.
“Vegas is preschool. She doesn’t have a fucking passport.”
He nodded, made a sympathetic sound, and waited. They sat and sipped. From their vantage point of the leather chairs in the corner, they had a view of the bar, the large flat screen TV and the entrance. She watched the customers move in and out around the bar, trying to get the attention of the bartender or each other. He tried watching the game, but kept letting his eyes slide back to her. She was, if nothing else, exactly his type. Fully fifteen years younger. Petite. Long dark hair. Given to having spontaneous, uninhibited sex and then disappearing for days or weeks and once for several months.
“Plus she’s kind of a lesbian.”
“Well, to be fair, many women who have sex with other women are.”
She sighed. “I know I know, but…ok, you know that joke about lesbians bringing a U-Haul on the second date?”
“Yes, so she…?”
“She started talking about the future. In Vegas, no less. I’m looking to have fun, go dancing, get laid and she’s talking about looking for a bigger apartment. Or a house! You know for ‘her dog’. Right.”
He thought about it for a minute. Wondering why her arrogance never even fazed him. It always just seemed warranted. “Maybe she just wants more room for her dog?”
She snorted. “She’s looking to nest. Trust me, I’ve seen it before.”
He couldn’t think of a response for that, so again they sat in silence. He didn’t kid himself. He knew he was waiting for her to make a move. She sighed and held up her margarita, examining it. “Three, two, one. The perfect mix,” and then downed it with only a slight shudder.
He knew what she meant. He’d heard her order it enough times. Three parts tequila, silver, top shelf; two part fresh lime juice; and one part Cointreau. Rocks. Salt, but not too much. But whenever she said “three, two, one” he remembered something else she’d said.
They were on his bed–it was always his bed because she didn’t bring anyone back to her place. Ever. They’d had sex and she was naked and had a joint, that had been tucked in her jeans pocket, pinched between thumb and finger. She rolled over to her back, stretched luxuriantly and suggestively, said “three, two, one” and inhaled deeply. He’d looked at her quizzically. She’d laughed and for the first time, maybe the only time, he’d thought it wasn’t a pretty sound. “Rule number one: no more than three dates.” It had felt like a judgment. After all, it had been their third date. And it was after that night that he hadn’t seen her for months. He’d called, texted, emailed, but no response.
When he did see her again it had been at a party and she’d been someone else’s date, but she’d been bored and had left with him. Back to his place. She would occasionally meet him “just for drinks” and occasionally have sex with him “just for fun”, but they hadn’t had what you’d call a date since that night. A friend had stated sympathetically that he’d become her booty call. But there were worse things, right?
She carefully set the empty glass down, stood, and slung her oversized purse over her shoulder. “Well, I’ve got to go. I have a date.”
“With your girlfriend?”
Short laugh, “No, not tonight.” And she was gone.
He paid the tab and tipped the bartender well, despite his disappointment. On the way to his car he thumbed through his cell phone contacts, found what he was looking for, and tapped the number.
“Hey, what are you up to tonight?….”
Photo and text by Sandra Peterson-Ramirez.
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Tagged: fiction, short story
“Alone. Yes, that’s the key word, the most awful word in the English tongue. Murder doesn’t hold a candle to it and hell is only a poor synonym.” ~Stephen King
He reached out, set the glasses on the dash. In their reflection he could see trees and light poles flashing by at seventy-five miles an hour. He couldn’t see the gas station he was leaving behind. He couldn’t see her standing inside, behind the dirty plate glass window. She’d told him that she couldn’t go any farther with him. That the bus stopped there and she was going to take it to some other godforsaken little town. Responsibilities, she’d said. He’d gotten in the truck and peeled out like a teenager and it’d started to rain just like in a Goddamned movie.
He stewed about what could have been while he drove for the next three hours. He finally had to stop at another dingy little gas station outside Dallas. Tossing the chips and soda on the counter, he reached into his pocket, and laughed, a loud harsh sound that startled the clerk. Her last goodbye kiss and been so passionate and deep, so full of regret. She’d slid her soft warm hands all over him, under his shirt and down his ass, and relieved him of his wallet. He met the wary clerk’s eyes and said simply, “Love is grand.”
Photos and text by Sandra Peterson-Ramirez.
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All of our posts with 13 Ways in the title are part of an ongoing creative project, which you can read about here:
“We will open the book. Its pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The book is called Opportunity and its first chapter is New Year’s Day.”
~ Edith Lovejoy Pierce
“As a writer, I can think of no greater terror than confronting a blank page, except perhaps the terror of being shot at.”
~ Richard Castle, Naked Heat
It seemed like such an good idea: I’d take myself to lunch. Tea. Croissant. And a blank journal. A blank journal may or may not be an ideal companion. Its pages stare mutely at you as you sit, pen poised, listening to the buzz of conversation around you. It doesn’t ask how your holidays went. It doesn’t inquire after friends, family, pets, or the traffic on the way over. It just sits and, in the words of Uncle Remus, “don’t say nothing”. So I sat among the people who had the good sense to bring a human to lunch and had a private conversation with myself, inside the world of the journal. And by the end of lunch, the journal was a little less blank and a little less mute. Not a bad way to start the new year.
“Your silence will not protect you”
~Audre Lorde, Sister Outsider: Essays and Speeches
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Tagged: drive in the country, photo
First, a few things I love: a great view; revisiting someplace and finding that I still love it or, better yet, finding something new to love about it; and a good story. I also have a great fondness for dessert, but that’s another list.
We’ve driven right by this spot at least twice before on the way to Alamo Springs Cafe (for their a-mazing burgers), but we never stopped to check out the view. It was worth stopping for. As we stood and admired, the kid asked about the structure over to the left. I told him it was probably a fire lookout tower and that it reminded me of a story.
Sometime in 1936 a girl took a walk in the woods of western Louisiana with a girl friend. They came upon a fire lookout tower and climbed up to check out the view. In addition to a view, they found a sleeping man. He was the CCC volunteer assigned to man the tower and was happily sleeping off the previous evening’s fun. The man awoke to a girl with big grey eyes and a dark ponytail peering at him. She was a shy 17 year old in a blue pinafore. He had a rakish grin, was 26 and, worst of all, was “Louisiana French”.
Of course he immediately began pursuing her. For two years he courted her with compliments and gifts and promises. The thing that eventually won her over was when he paid to have her mother’s remaining teeth removed, and then covered the cost of her dentures. He proposed, she accepted and in 1938 they were married. And then in 1939 they had a baby girl, my mom.
So, I explained to the kid, a fire tower like that one was responsible for my standing there, admiring that view.
Tagged: Hotel Havana, photos, Riverwalk, San Antonio, travel